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Wednesday, 5 August 2015

Days 5, 6 & 7 - and failure.

The diet was going so well. I could cry!

Below are my meals and exercise for Monday. Now, I know walking isn't exactly strenuous, but a gal's got to start somewhere, and I have to walk Ayra every day anyway, so I thought it would be at the very least interesting to see how far I was going every day, and if I could hit a target of at least 6,000 steps minimum. I know that doesn't sound like much, but my lifestyle is at best currently 'sedentary', so I thought it would be a reasonable goal.




A hearty protein-rich breakfast of scrambled egg, mushrooms and beans. Yum.


My dinner there is 100% veg and was d e l i c i o u s. Vegetarian sausages, green beans, peas and sweetcorn, topped off with lashings of bisto. So, so comforting and filling and so quick and easy to make.

I did good. I cheated with a finger (or two) shoved into the Nutella jar. I regret nothing.

Tuesday was again, ok. A bit bleurgh. I walked less steps, but still hit my 6,000 goal. I considered upping it to 10,000. I added the goal of 'drink more water' and 'do ab exercises' to my lovely walking app - Pacer, if you were wondering, which is fab and kicks Strava's butt - and ticked them off as I glugged water and did a couple of tummy crunches at bed time. Life was going okay. 

And today, Wednesday, I weighed myself. In just 6 days I've lost 4 pounds. 4 pounds! I should be over the moon. I was - I am. 

But instead of celebrating this news and feeling inspired to continue with my progress, I have eaten more today than ever. I had Frosties for breakfast. Why? I'm not a 7 year old child. Why did I do that? I made myself a massive chicken curry for a late lunch, enough for dinner too, but ate it all in one sitting. WHY?! I wanted chocolate more than I wanted life itself so I slathered Nutella on hot crumpets and devoured it, and kept on devouring it past the point of feeling sick (there was only 2 crumpets but a hell of a lot of Nutella). Later, my mum was making herself a bacon sarnie for dinner and I'd already eaten enough but when she offered me one I of course said, yes, please! I have drunk my bodyweight in tea and had only a single glass of fresh water.

What has happened to me?! I am doing this FOR myself, I look jealously at other girl's figures and fitness inspiration posts and envy over their bodies and motivation. Why do I then cave in to my own cravings, give up the minute I get ahead? I now feel so, so down and a little sick with myself. 

I need a holiday. And a hug. And a salad.





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  1. You're doing a good job so far! You've just gotta break the sugar addiction and it's smooth sailing after that, but that's easier said than done!

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  2. once you see an improvement it will motivate you soooo much!

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